Nonsense: Style definition

I had an interesting dream: I was told that FEAR was my biggest enemy and drawback.
The dream ended with me in some cold, clammy rocky beach area, by a weather-beaten cottage on an elevated wooden platform, above the tide. I arrived with a huge armload of books, smiling and saying "don't worry about me, I'll be dead in a week."

Then again, maybe I should call the Cenacle Sisters and see if their retreat in Bowen Island still has some openings.

What I am now:
Bittersweet
Complex
Cerebralxx
intimate
refined/mannered
reflective
sensual---
sophisticated---
stylishxx
earnest
gentle
literate
organic

What I would like to be:
Boisterous
Exuberant
Freewheeling
Literate
Playful
Quirky
Reflective
Trippy
Whimsical
Witty
Confident
Energetic