vitamin b12 scribble notes

I'm afraid if I use pen and paper for these, they'll get lost.

Making lots of connections, receiving input this week. Spiritual director says I'm not moving just by notes up the scale, but by octaves.

Music: downloading/listening to: Ligeti, Stockhausen, Bartok, Pavement, Penderecki, Messiaen.

Nanotech: A123, FMC for lithium, Altair Nano, Hewlett-Packard, IBM, GE.

Foods: Vitamins A, C, E, B12, chinese medicine. Vitamin B12 cannot be made by plants or animals as only bacteria have the enzymes required for its synthesis, so beware of claims that spirulina has B12. Many (though not all) of the effects of functions of B12 can be replaced by sufficient quantities of folic acid (another B vitamin)

National Institute of Health Food Source Sheet for Vitamin B-12

Energy testing for B-complex: only two of NatureMade; six of spirulina, three of Vitamin C.

mishmash

gotta get this stuff down before it escapes:

Nanotechnology

Bought IBM stock today. Yes it brought down the NYSE at the close of the day but it met analysts' earnings estimates, and it's investing in nanotechnology.

School Science/Math project ideas: Music and the Golden Ratio; Statistics and Baseball's Greatest Hitters; Math and Fantasy/Rotisserie Soccer/Baseball; solar cell; electric dragster; Lewis Carroll puzzles; food science and enzymes/sprouts.

Other stocks: Varian Medical Sys. VAR; Gilead Sciences; Enbridge; EnCana; BYDFF; Brazil Fund; mPhase Technologies; A123 Systems; Oak Ridge Micro-Energy (OKME); Ultralife Batteries (ULBI);

* Microsemi (MSCC, news, msgs), where about 40% of sales are made up of analog/mixed-signal chips that manage light, sound and power for electrical devices,

* Vicor (VICR, news, msgs), the maker of the VI line of high-efficiency, low-heat power-converter chips, and

* Maxwell Technologies (MXWL, news, msgs), the global leader with a 27% market share in ultra-capacitors, an alternative to batteries for energy storage. * Sociedad Química y Minera de Chile (SQM, news, msgs). The company produces about 65% of the lithium that comes out of the Salar de Atacama region of Chile. Recoverable reserves there make up 20% of the world's known reserves.

* FMC (FMC, news, msgs). The company produces lithium from Argentina's Salar de Hombre Muerto region, where recoverable reserves are estimated at 11% of global known reserves.

http://electricandhybridcar.com/electric/we-need-dilithium-crystals/

Did Mozart Use The Golden Ratio?

scrap of paper containing book titles, acupuncture

Today I visited an acupuncturist, for glaucoma and liver chi stagnation blockage. Now I find that a hefty majority of Amurricans who visit acupuncturists are treated for liver chi stagnation.

* Heaven & Earth: A Guide to Chinese Medicine
by Beinfield H. & Korngold E. (New York: Ballantine Books, 1991)
* Fundamentals of Chinese Acupuncture
Ellis, E., Wiseman N., & Boss, K. (Brookline, MA: Paradigm, 1991)
* Acupuncture: How it Works, How it Cures
Firebrace, Peter & Hill, Sarah (New Canaan, CN: Keats Publishing, 1994)
* The Tao of Physics
Capra, Frijtof (New York: Bantam, 1978)
* The Chinese Way to Health:A Self Help Guide to Traditioal Medicine
Gascoigne, S (Boston: Charles E. Tuttle, 1991)
* Acupuncture for Everyone
Lever, Ruth (London: Penguin, 1987)
* East-West Healing: Integrating Chinese & Western Medicines for Optimal Healing
Loo, Mary and Jack Maguire (New York: John Wiley & Sons, 2001)
* Acupuncture: The Ancient Chinese Art of Healing & How It Works Scientifically
Mann, Felix (New York: Vintage Books, 1992)

more fiction:
The Nowhere City
The Robber Bride
Disappearing Moon Cafe
The Jade Peony
Reservation Blues
Nights at the Circus
Golden Notebook
Memoiri from Antproof Case
Buddenbrooks
A Gay and 'Melancholy Sound
Only You, Dick Daring
The Dog Who Wouldn't Be
Van Reid's Moosepath League stories
The Siege of Krishnapur

fielding suggestions for Black American books for Black History Month. PRobably should put an Obama book on hold, hey?

Third day of fast

First movement in over a day: surprising amount considering liquid diet. Learning what supplements will best lower my intraocular pressure: Vitamin C, but what dose? Absorption half-life is half an hour, I've read that the maximum amount absorbed in one ingestion is 1 gram, yet am seeing claims of 10g to 33g daily dosages. How much of that really gets absorbed?

Having good results with: calcium/magnesium, Vitamin D, Vitamin C+B complex. The 29mg chelated iron may be too much for me to take when I'm not bleeding. It's all about getting my energy back, breaking sugar/caffeine cravings, and lowering the intraocular pressure.

Today: buy tomatoes, more greens, celery. Am loving fresh juices from my juicer!

I have lost seven pounds since my visit with my physician Dec. 11. Thanks, juice fast!

Major discovery of the week/month/year

My adrenal glands are burned out, and so am I. I'm sugar-sensitive, and addicted to caffeine. I don't drink alcohol now, although a glass of wine a week wasn't immediately harmful. It takes about six months to two years to properly heal the adrenal glands, and doing so means eliminating substances so omnipresent in American foods: sugar, alcohol, caffeine. For over a year I've noticed fat stored around my midsection, although my body mass index is 21.4, and my weight is normal. I could lose seven to thirteen pounds to be closer to where it should be for my body frame. It'd be best if those pounds came from the midsection.

But yeah: lack of motivation, needing caffeine/sugar to get going, depression, brain fog, irritability -- all signs of adrenal burnout. What causes adrenal fatigue: stress. Stress has many faces: worry, anger, finances, job, living beyond your means, trauma, surgery, chronic illness, chronic pain, diet, lack of or too much exercise – anything that is negative or feels negative. It's not just me who's experienced this: this is very common in the United States.

I'm trying a juice fast: I am on the third day, and am noting the following healing crises: increased saliva and coated tongue. Juicing has been fun: yesterday I did parsley/carrot/celery/broccoli/kale/tomato, and this morning was pear/cucumber/ginger. Looking forward to trying more juice combinations. I may go buy a greens supplement of wheatgrass: the chlorophyll may be useful for detoxifying my liver.
My liver'd been sending signals that I'm overloaded from stress but I ignored them, and that's easy to do until a tsunami of stressful situations and negative factors hits the system.

Am hoping/expecting that acupressure, energy medicine, diet, and exercise will put me back on the path to wellness. Energy medicine helped me localize the issue, Dr. Diana Schwarzbein's book helped me establish what state my adrenal glands are in, Dr. Robert Lustig's fascinating 89-minute videotaped lecture "Sugar: The Bitter Truth" showed me how fructose and sucrose are metabolized in the body, and the Internet, along with Steve Meyerowitz's book on Juice Fasting and Detoxification helped identify ways of healing.

2010: The year of new experiences

1. Deleted inbox decaying matter from two accounts. Sliced Yahoo! account inbox by 60%. Gmail account sliced by 50%.

2. I am not officially overweight, but I could lose 7 - 13 lbs to be closer to what's acceptable for my frame and height. So I'm on some sort of juice fast. I am counting on the decaying fecal matter and toxins to be released. I am okay with losing one pound or two a week. I like wheat and dairy in the wintertime, and the cold and rain don't do much to inspire me to go out for daily exercise. That's how I gain weight.

3. Teared up at the last five minutes of "My Dinner With Andre." Erik Satie's "Gymnopedies #1" is profoundly moving to me, and Andre Gregory's experiences of stillness and newfound consciousness, adlibbed or scripted, set off internal bells. In the past month or so there's been a significant shift in consciousness for me. Maybe it's because I don't watch much television, or have felt isolated and removed, and am suspicious of multi-user shared hallucinations perpetrated through memes, media stories, corporate agendas. I think Mr. Gregory oversold it on the "appreciation of the cold", although I got his point about recognizing what is and accepting it as that. No, if I know it is cold I know that my body is not comfortable, and I am not falling asleep or into a trance if I want to get rid of my goosebumps or stop shivering: I am asking to revert to situation normal. I'm going to try for more contemplation time as part of my spiritual growth.

welcome to 2010

It's 01/02/2010

I should have some goals. They swirl, formless, as teasing whispers in my conscious. I have had a few breakthroughs of joy and happiness, discoveries of health and pleasure. I may be recovering from my stress-induced malaise.

First goal I can think of is to expose my son this year to at least ten films from British Film Institute's Top 50 Films for Children. I've deleted the ones he's seen:

* Au revoir les enfants (Louis Malle, 1987, France/W.Germany)
* Back to the Future (Robert Zemeckis, 1985, USA)
* Beauty and the Beast (Gary Trousdale/Kirk Wise, 1991, USA)
* Bicycle Thieves (Vittorio De Sica, 1948, Italy)
* Billy Elliot (Stephen Daldry, 2000, UK/France)
* E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial (Steven Spielberg, 1982, USA)
* Edward Scissorhands (Tim Burton, 1990, USA)
* Etre et Avoir (Nicolas Philibert, 2002, France)
* Finding Nemo (Andrew Stanton/Lee Unkrich, 2003, USA)
* It's a Wonderful Life (Frank Capra, 1946, USA)
* Kes (Ken Loach, 1969, UK)
* The Kid (Charles Chaplin, 1921, USA)
* King Kong (Merian C.Cooper/Ernest B.Schoedsack, 1933, USA)
* Kirikou et la sorcière (Michel Ocelot, 1998, France/Belgium/Luxembourg)
* La Belle et la bête (Jean Cocteau, 1946, France / Luxembourg)
* Le Voyage dans la lune (Georges Melies, 1902, France)
* Les Quatre cents coups (Francois Truffaut, 1959, France)
* Monsieur Hulot's Holiday (Jacques Tati, 1953, France)
* My Life as a Dog (Lasse Halstrom, 1985, Sweden)
* My Neighbour Totoro (Hayao Miyazaki, 1988, Japan/USA)
* The Night of the Hunter (Charles Laughton, 1955, USA)
* Oliver Twist (David Lean, 1948, UK)
* The Outsiders (Francis Ford Coppola, 1983, USA)
* Pather Panchali (Satyajit Ray, 1955, India)
* Playtime (Jacques Tati, 1967, France/Italy)
* The Princess Bride (Rob Reiner, 1987, USA)
* Rabbit-Proof Fence (Phillip Noyce, 2002, Australia)
* Raiders of the Lost Ark (Steven Spielberg, 1981, USA)
* The Railway Children (Lionel Jeffries, 1970, UK)
* The Red Balloon (Albert Lamorisse, 1956, France)
* Romeo + Juliet (Baz Luhrman, 1996, USA)
* The Secret Garden (Agnieszka Holland, 1993, UK/USA)
* Show Me Love (Lukas Moodysson, 1998, Sweden/Denmark)
* Singin' in the Rain (Stanley Donen/Gene Kelly, 1952, USA)
* Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (Disney, 1937, USA)
* Some Like it Hot (Billy Wilder, 1959, USA)
* The Spirit of the Beehive (Victor Erice, 1973, Spain)
* Spirited Away (Hayao Miyazaki, 2001, Japan)
* To Kill a Mockingbird (Robert Mulligan, 1962, USA)
* Toy Story (John Lasseter, 1995, USA)
* Walkabout (Nicholas Roeg, 1971, UK)
* Whale Rider (Niki Caro, 2002, New Zealand)
* Where is the Friend's House? (Abbas Kiarostami, 1987, Iran)
* Whistle Down the Wind (Bryan Forbes, 1961, UK)
* The White Balloon (Jafar Panahi, 1995, Iran)
* The Wizard of Oz (Victor Fleming, 1939, USA)

I wanted to get "Les Quatre cents coups" but my kid has some DVD already picked out while I watch "My Dinner with André". I don't want any talkback about the kid not having seen "The Kid." I can't remember if he's seen it. I like how there are two versions of "The Beauty and The Beast". Weird, too, that there are more Jacques Tati films than Chaplin's. The Boy can't get enough Chaplin. I started him out on Max Linder...
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What did I learn? That the heavy stress I endured in my early life and pregnancy has left me with a degenerative disease, and some of my pain can be lessened through exercise and diet. I've learned Less is More, that angels and demons do exist, my relations are at fault for being closed-minded, reactionary and limited for not accepting my olive branches. I learned what sugar does to the body, how much sugar the average American ingests, and how to avoid high fructose corn syrup. I've learned the power of prayer, read some good books, discovered some people are overrated. I've learned it's possible to give too much if one isn't a receptacle for storing energy: that's where I am. I have learned not to have coffee after 11:30 a.m.
I have learned Donna Eden's Daily Five Minute Energy Routine, and how powerful and effective Energy Medicine is. I was initially skeptical. I have learned how rewarding and bonding it is to share honest spiritual experiences with my oldest friends. I've learned how to stop my premenstrual cramping and the foot cramping (this had dogged me for eight years!!) through vitamin supplementation. Also: my cat enjoys eating duck, almost as much as she enjoys halibut and tuna.